mommmmyyyyyyyyyyyyyyyyyyyyyyyy
mom holy flipper doodles i dont know what to
send you but i just wanna talk for a long time: maybe forever: that works?
cool. maybe ill just send you randoms until i drop.
you write me sufficiently and i appreciate it
with all of my heart. your letters are all in this little bag that i have in my
room and from time to time i go and i read them if i need a good pick me up.
which is often. im sort of
ashamed to say that im not as positive as i used to be or thought i would be.
everyone told me i would just make the best of everything and feel good about
any situation but MAN MOM THE MISSION IS HARD
ITS HARDDDDDDDDDDDDDDDDDDDD
ok i just had to let that out. hahaha its a new
therepy im working on. teretts. lol remember when my eye wouldnt stop twitching
and then we said i was gonna start swearing at the pulpit? i miss your sense of
humor, mom. i think i took it here sort of and i talk about toots sometimes.
youre just so flipping rad and funny mom. never forget it.
it really is fine. theres
just lots of changes and stupid things that happen and i am already tired of
these responsibilities that i have at this point right now. i always ask myself
how im gonna be a mom if i cant handle these responsibilities right now. i dont
wanna worry about other peoples problems anymore and holy smoley mom, these
people have SO MANY PROBLEMS. I wish i knew all the answers but i dont.
you went on a mission, is
that how you felt sometimes? tell me some story or some advice.
on the bright side, and there
are many, i freaking love my new companion. she makes me feel better and more
like myself because shes just herself too. we are figuring things out together
and shes teaching me a ton of things also. shes chinese, makes chinese food,
shes tiny and sassy as heck. i love it. i hope we start picking things up in
this sector eventually. i just have to find motivation because sometimes that
is a little bit lost. oooh.
theres lots of nice and
caring people. even if they are insane they are really top.
i love the sisters in my
house right now. what would i do without the laughs we have had this week.
transfers can be good.
i tripped on the same doormat
three times the other day. still a clutz.
i still love to do accents.
im still sad im not gonna be
there for the wedding but im pumped for aj. hes all grown up.
i think aj had a really hard
mission and if he can do it, that makes me feel like i can do it. tell him he
can send me advice anytime.
emily left the mission and
the church. im really upset.
and sorry im venting so much.
something that sr ho does is we have venting times. she tells me about how mean
her other companion was and i tell her that i dont know how to be a missionary.
but i wanna stop blaming
other people for how i feel. because a lot of the time i feel really good. its
just some other times i feel really really crappy.
i saw a mini cooper here
yesterday (which is rare because the cars here are trash) and i thought about
you but what the heck crud? send me some pics of this marshmallow car that you
have:??? you got some splaining to do mom
sorry again for the vent. im
doing alright. love youuuuuuuuu
tell me more deets in the family. youre the
best. loves and kisses and sweet sweets.
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